It's absolutely mind blowing, amazing, heart breaking, tear-inducing and an entire assortment of feelings I can't even begin to put into words.
There are days I'm ready to pull my hair out because my brain is so fried from answering the constant stream of questions my inquisitive daughter. There are moments that I find myself teetering on the brink of a breakdown, because the mental and physical demands of motherhood are all encompassing and never ending.
Except, one day, they will end.
Sure, I'll always be the mother to these darling kiddos, but one day, they won't need me anymore. That's not to say when they're full-fledged adults they won't still need a hug from their mom time to time, but they won't need it as much. And that's fine, that's the way it should be.
But I have a feeling when that time comes, I'll yearn for these days back. I'll long for my daughter to follow me from room to room, asking what the tiny fuzzies floating in the air are and why she can't have a stink bug collection. I'll wish my son was climbing all over me and squishing every body part just so he can nuzzle his little head into my neck and bury his body into mine.
I know that these days will come to an end sooner than later, which is probably why I find myself grasping for straws every time a birthday rolls around.
So we go all out. We buy ridiculous decorations, spend too much on food, invite too many people, buy too many gifts and bake way, way too many cupcakes. Just kidding, there's no such thing as too many cupcakes! There's going to come a birthday when my beautiful little girl won't want me to make her a princess cake with pink sprinkles and a castle, a day when she won't care that her two great aunts and second cousins have attended nearly every milestone in her life, from her first birthday party to her first dance recital.
So while I have the power to be everything and do everything for my little girl, then that's exactly what we're going to do.
Pearyn decided for her fourth birthday party that she wanted princess anything and everything! From balloons, streamers and door signs, to magic fruit wands and a queens confections stand, we threw one heck of a pink, princess-palooza for our little gal.
It rained and poured all day, so our backyard plan was quickly moved into the basement. It wasn't ideal, but it was sufficient, and the kiddos were able to run around with each other. We were blessed to have a large amount of family in attendance, friends that have become family and a handful of kids from Pearyn's preschool class.
It was stressful party planning, but at the end of the day, it was more than worth it for our little girl. The smile on her face when her friends arrived and she got to instantly capture photos with her new camera (an AWESOME gift, I can recommend the Fuijifilm Instant Mini enough) made all those fruit wands and flatbread rolls ups MORE than worth it.
After all, there's going to come a time when she won't believe in magic wands and princesses anymore.
At least not for a while. If we have anything to do with it.
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